Welcome back! I hope everyone had a great weekend. The weather in this part of the northeastern US remained great. I wish the best to all those who have experienced hardships from Tropical Storm Fay. I hope to take a little time later this week to explain a perspective of what was going on there. That storm appeared to be an indication that the planetary rebalancing is getting closer.
Also this week we will take a closer look at how we can learn to stay in the moment. I received an inquiry from a reader who asked if we could go into further depth about how to stay in the moment. We will take a bit of time this week to do just that.
Today we will take a look at an example of how the false self holds a grudge. The lesson to take from this is how unhappy this can make us for many years.
Are you ready to look at how silly a grudge can be? Let’s go!
An Old Grudge
Many people know that I am a cineaste, a person who is a fan of movies. My preference is classic movies from all over the world. Pursuing this interest allows me to watch the false self in action from many perspectives. Sometimes it is the way the plot is written and the characters act out their parts. When researching the history of the movies one encounters many stories where actors lived their real lives deeply enmeshed in their false self illusions and fears.
This weekend I was watching an interview with a very famous director. The interview was recorded several years ago when the director was over eighty years old. The director has since passed.
During the interview the discussion turned to an incident many years ago when the director had punched a critic. When asked about the incident the director readily admitted to having attacked the critic.
Evidently the reason the director physically attacked the critic was that the critic had written reviews of the director’s work that the director did not like. The director said that he thought that by punching the critic he would intimidate the critic so that the critic would no longer write about him.
The part of the interview that I found extremely sad was that the director said “I hated that man then, and I hate him now. Even though he is now dead I will always hate him.”
Carrying Great Pain
What I found so sad about this interview was that this world acclaimed man had chosen to bring himself so much pain. This deep seated hate of the critic had caused him to act in a very painful manner and attack the man. Then he chose to cause continuing pain by nurturing a deep and hateful grudge for the critic.
How many of us carry similar pain? False self decided that some incident in the past was so hurtful that we were going to punish the one(s) who caused the hurt by hating them for the rest of our lives.
I have an acquaintance that has carried the same type of hurt for over thirty five years. He was in combat in the Viet Nam war and has yet to release his hate of the ones he fought. Just like the director, the object of his hate is dead, yet he continues to hurt himself by continuing to hate.
Why Does False Self Hate?
There are many reasons that false self hates, but they all come down to either perceiving that it has been hurt or anticipating that it might be hurt. In the case of our director, his false self perceived that it had been hurt. Let’s step through this based on what we have learned in the last few weeks.
This all starts with the director’s false self identification with his work. As we have seen, this identification causes false self to think that the film is part of itself. Now that the film is part of itself any remark (true or not) that false self chooses not to like will be viewed as an attack on false self. An attack on the film is the same as an attack on false self.
In order to “defend” itself false self determined that the best course of action would be to attack the critic. The stated reason was to keep the critic from writing about the director’s work. This means that the false self attacked the critic so that the critic would not continue to hurt the false self by writing about the director’s work. In other words, the critic could not hurt the false self if he no longer wrote about the director.
In this case the director first perceived an attack on false self through the unflattering writings of the critic. Hurt number one for the false self. The false self attacked the critic to keep him from hurting false self again. Hurt number two for the false self. This attack hurt false self much more than it hurt the critic.
In order to “prove” that false self was “right” when it attacked the critic the false self then chose to hate the critic. The false self “logic” here was that if we could always view the critic with hate then we would not have to look at the possibility that we might have been wrong to attack the critic.
This became hurt number three for the false self. And it became the hurt that it nurtured for the rest of its life. It is so sad to see people hurt themselves in this manner. When we really understand how the false self is controlling our lives through fears and illusions we wonder why people choose to hurt themselves so deeply. At least I wonder about that.
That’s all for today. I am very interested in hearing your insights regarding the example we looked at today. A discussion about this type of situation is always thought provoking for everyone involved. Please share your thoughts with our other readers.
Until tomorrow –
Es kava turen hai
We work towards an identical goal.
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